i sure hope impossible is nothing..cos currently i may have to do the impossible.haha..nvm.nothin really happened lately apart from econs mcq (man...i'm still hovering around 31-32 out of 40 even when i've done everything from nov2003 to june93..a whole 20 papers) and a little of physics..had a pretty interesting night last night...hope things work out (and hopefully i get that free seoul garden meal?)
can someone teach me the art of persuasion? or rather...teach my dad the art of listening to persuasion. Newspaper said sth like don't step into phuket for fear of terrorism or inter-racial violence of some sort...apparently involving the muslims (seriously no offence here..i'm just reading from context) and my dad happily decides to fly over to phuket next wednesday (when i'm having my GP paper) for a little GOLF trip! mum tried to persuade him not to go..and u know what he said ? "in that case walking anywhere on earth is dangerous too what.." what the hell..y can't he play golf at jurong country club?!
in serious need of an attention-focusing machine...can u believe that that the whole day i've only done like..3 mcq papers?! i'm like having the worst time at home...can't keep my eyes on the questions and can't keep my mind off whatever's happening around me.guess the harsher (and definitely colder) school environment works by making me think faster? and the homely comfort zone i call my domain's just too..homey.
read the newspapers today regardin china's economy and the govt's decision to increase interest rates (very econs textbook eh?haha) and stuff..and realised i immediately reached out for the papers b4 the thought of reading in came to me. in other words, the words "interest rates" and "economy" made me pick up the papers as quickly as i'll turn on the TV for a real madrid match or a Simpsons episode.guess doin economics in the future sure looks a good idea..not too sure why but since i'm dead beat certain i'm not gonna do maths or anything remotely scientific if i have the choice..isn't this along the line? law seems abit far fetched to be honest..
jus caught X-games 2004 on tv earlier today (or yesterday can't remember)...eito and takeshi yashitoko rox sia..esp takeshi with all his big-arse airs and flat-spin combos as well as the rail-grinds..eito's california roll still rox but he ended up with the bronze..and suddenly i got a great idea! since that dumb wake-boardin thingie's hitting singapore's shores..any1 game for wakeboardin as soon as As end? i know where we can find wake boards!haha...time to pick up a new hobby!
i'm off to books again...sux.sometimes i just wish the mercedes benz ad was real. we should all be bornt old..start working at the top end and when we are at our peaks, drive a benz. i mean..don't u wanna be bornt old and work your way down? atleast you'll look good when you pass on the the next world and you get to savour the better things in life before you get down to the nitty gritty ends of growing up.haha..i'm dreaming..peace~!

Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in a world they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it.
Impossible is not a fact. It's an opinion.
Impossible is not a declaration. It's a dare.
Impossible is potential.
Impossible is temporary.
IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING.

i seriously do envy the year1 batch this year.not only are they intelligent (they are surpassing my batch) they are also creative in their work. jus check out halloween party! hell..i'll be dellirious if we had a single dance party, but those guys had 3 so far, and a definitely happening-looking halloween party. not to insult the councillors of my batch, but what's happening?
that pretty much was the highlight of the day.the rest was pretty much in repitition..mugging with that stupid econs tys and stuff. my flu ain't recovering, and that contributed dramatically to my exponentially increasing unproductivity..its as though my marginal physical product's falling with every increase in time per seconds (i'm crapping).
finally decided enough economics is enough economics.i've been slugging my way through the ten year series with my grades not showing any significant improvement...with a grade of 32/40 being my best so far..and it suddenly dawned to me that my study plan could jolly well be flawed.but nvm..i'm dead in any case.
suddenly remembered what Dr Kuek said when i saw her at the dental centre. she said sth like "don't stress yourself..just study to the maximum amount you can and that's enough for education". haha...if a doctor (dentist actually) can say that...i better get down to work more!
chris mike lee is out! this is gettin more than mere coincidental sia..when jerry was to be voted out someone was discussing with me abt his church an stuff..when maia was to be kicked out lydia was tellin me how her mum saw her robust anatomy (which was theoretically supposed to lead to the decrease in size of a greyer matter) made her a model slut and thus unpopular..and shiqin was talkin to me abt how rich chris's mum is and how much she can't bear to have her son thrown out for she's a singing coach herself..so ppl nxt week if u suddenly wanna talk to me abt singapore idols...do it quick! starhub just told me if i could predict who's leaving i stand a chanec to win tickets to the finals at the indoor stadium!
read haogen's blog and came across...haogenism 107: sense of taste. in his grand but pompous theory he suggest that sense of taste is coherently related to sense of sight, citing the incident of the hot waitress and stuff.here's my argument..kokanism theory of senses. by my theory, the sense of taste is co-related to the sense of touch..if i touch sth which feels soggy and rotten, naturally the taste of degeneration sets in my mouth even before i taste it.in retrospect, all our senses are all co-relation of the sense of touch. spiders and many insects use their feelers or hairs on their anatomy to touch and sense movement etc since the sense of touch is the most widely available sense of all 5..and using his own argument of the waitress...a simple softest of soft touches on the most delicate of delicate lips, followed a deft stroke along ur arm and a gentle squeeze of your shoulder after that..doesn't it feel better?haha...all abt touch man!
learnt alot today regardin people and relationships..and ppl can take it to extremes.in any case the guy takes the lead in traditional courtship for both species and man kind..
realised how fortunate i was to have always been in the company of friends.but amanda jus had to break my heart with that stupid suggestion of hers! kidding..haha..anw i'm off to bed already..nitez~!

guess i forgot to mention...Dr Kuek said my braces can be taken out as soon as...nxt appointment! which means sth like..15/12 ! haha...no more crude jokes abt my braces and no more...inability to engage in the ritual of passing one's salivary fluids to another person in exchange for a similar dose of digestive enzymes! haha..man i'm dead bored...
yz jus did a david beckham la.y on earth are you admitting your HC friends told you about the kinematics thingie and titration?haha..

bored..and seriously not in the mood.the feeling's gone now..more or less..guess it never was strong or significant enough in anysense to make it last..this sux.
tbere's also a reason why i forgot.it's something i've been thinking about for a long time and i've been living in regret and shame for a long time as well.the purpose was deffective to begin with, and all the "what-ifs" appear before me as i look back with remorse.
anyway if you are reading this, whatever you asked me on the trip back can be answered with a simple "no".am i that kinda person?am i that kinda guy?
in any case, got "cheated" by mr wong. not really his fault la (hence the "") cos i was the one who's late.but nevertheless a 1 hr session ended up being a 1/2 hour session with most of my queries still being...queries.he said somethin like see him nxt week but honestly, i have other subs to take care of (like what glenn said).still found it pretty useful, especially the way he makes me see the obvious.
stayed around freezing myself in the library after that. You have no idea how cold it is...its so cold the -2 degrees on the mountain top of yunnan felt like the sahara (i'm great at exaggeration, rite?)in anycase couldn't even do anything in that cold..couldn't even press the buttons of my calculator.
left to play badminton after the unproductive hours freezing my legs off, and realised its one of the best way to destress.esp when u start sweating (and you certainly will NOT get injured in this) and start gettin excited..
left school after that..was supposed to get skirts w liyan, but she tried and tried to get haogen to come along.oh well..should have just went back to the library rite? felt like..but its history so lets drop it. ended up at queensway, and she looks IMMENSELY like ruud van nistelrooy.no joke whatsoever! there was a poster of ruud at queensway, and when she walked pass it a malay abang was sayin "oh my god..that girl looks like..." get the picture rite? the whole time she was being stared at by the abangs and shop owners.haha..pretty fascinating sight.guess if she wore the ruud jersey everyone's gonna start posing with her for a picture.there's your 5 minutes of fame!
talked to mrs chiew on my way up..she's a pretty nice teacher (i've realised that some time ago but i'm jus gonna reiterate the point) and she actually talked to me.cool...as if she taught me but she's got that...motherly feel to it. (dont you guys start another auntie-killer thing..the auntie at coro's a different case altogether) but everyone's gotta put his "talent" to good use eh?haha..
ppl complain that my blog's long-winded and stuff..too bad!its me who's typing this, so its a little expected? jus skip the soccer part and all the brackets and you'll get to the main gist of things la..i'm jus naturally long-winded (u ppl shld know frm the extreme length of my essays)
jus as vincent's havin a fetish for a particular kind of girl (man..not to crack another joke..but that fish's really hard to catch.jus have that feeling la..not abt the size la though in reality its kinda true!haha), i realised i've a thing for libertine girls (ie maia and that girl at sarongpartygirl). not so much as to me like whores or sluts, but its their personality..
shocking news : Fadiga, who has a history of heart problems, fell to the ground suddenly in the warm-up and was stretchered off to the dressing room by anxious medics. soccer player (international stars) faint during warm up...and i have heart problems too! oh no..
in any case, gotta go study.though econs ain't a pre-requisite, think i'm gonna try for a good econs grade..cos it sure looks easier to obtain than a maths grade.i'm just not that kinda guy...i'm not even sure what i'm lookin for..do you? peace~!

In ancient times, when people whack the soil with clubs and start yelling, it was called withcraft.
In civilised times, when people whack the soil with clubs and start yelling, it was called...golf.

Physics practical today.what a "good" way to start the A lvls.Didn't sleep very well last night, kinda got woken up by my bro shouting "gor! man u gonna get penalty! quick! look!" and what a sight it was. Though i spent most of the time sleeping on the couch, i had a pretty good look at the highlights (no thanks to my bro who just had to wake me up whenever someone got fouled or when someone crossed a ball in) ended up not sleeping the least bit. toyed with the idea of waking up at 3 to study, and i woke up, but studying wasn't on my mind. San Siro was the only place i wanted to be! nevertheless i disciplined myself and refused to set my sights on that dumb thing called remote control, but that also meant i refused to set my sights on everything else (i went back to bed la duh!)..
In anycase..man u surpassed expectations with an emphatic 2-0 demolition of the Arsenal in the very efficient though ugly art of destructive football. who cares rite? the results count! no more 50 unbeaten you gooners! like what zhenjie said..against the small clubs man u's unpredictable.but against the bigger clubs..a win's practically on the cards 99% of the time! jus look at arsenal, liverpool, and chelsea (this match was so...sucky.even cocky morinho said man u deserved sth)
back to reality.Practical was a tiny bit easy.haha..not to be cocky, but compared to prelims i had a much better time with electricity (atleast i didn't have to raise my hands to ask dumb questions this time) . the thing that caught me off was the finding of y-intercept. traditionally (dunno how much of this is tradition) we are given an equation and u simply sub values in and stuff..this time round the equation was on the other page..meaning i spent more den 15 minutes fumbling arnd trying to think of how on earth to get that y-intercept! hell yeah...that's stupid.
the question on magnets was worst..i didn't know how to get that dumb thingie of a magnet to oscillate at first, and i had to wait and wait and wait till yifen (sittin infrnt of me) tried doing it and i copied.hahaha...cheating eh? who cares...
guess practical's gone and...physics's pretty much gone unless i decide to work my ass off! and i'm gonna do just that..as soon as i'm dry.
sitting in the library right now drench in my own bodily fluids (no..not the one u will get jailed in NS for excreting). was supposed to go home until i saw thang and the ip kiddos playin soccer. itch brought me closer and closer to the ball, and eventually i joined in the merry kicking.after they left, i joined the SJI+RI+ACS people..what a lousy match. apart frm a few goals and stuff, i effectively did not do much. didn't have the energy to dribble (plus i'm somehow losing touch..whatever i had of it) and all i could do was pass and run and...shoot.oh well..couldn't care more..jus glad that i got abit of exercise (and this beats 10 cups of coffee anytime!)...but how i wish i had brains enuf to not run til my entire body's drenched.argh...
A lvls effectively started. you prepared yet? I have a schedule in mind..jus have to find the discipline to get it done. and if today's anything to go by, discipline is all that i really need (apart frm brain cells la)..
oh did i mention how good teacher Mr daniel wong is? i was flipping thru McEchern, Sloman and another econs textbook lookin at the money supply-bond selling/buying-central bank this and that, and i still had no clue what's going on. asked arnd, and weili, cindy and weijie gave me 3 different views on the issue altogether. sat down with Mr wong, and guess what! it went straight into my head! haha...he rocks sia..
anw..not dry yet but i can't do nuts either...and i have nuthin else to write.so..gonna start readin notes again.peace~!

well guys (who don't take bio)..tmr's the 1st day of A lvls! all e best for prac and the As! this is what we have been studyin for..so let's give it a final push!
actually there are more maia fans out there than i thought, and not all are guys! News last night showed disgruntled fans letting off some steam and getting their views aired regardin Maia's shocking exit from the competition. Even the cool-looking Ken Lim agreed that Maia has tonnes of potential and "it was a very sad way to vote"..haha.yeah! dig that all Maia-critics! she's how good and stuff..
earthquake hit japan yesterday..something abt 3 people dead so far and 200 plus injured (as of last night)..and a typhoon killing 70 already.man that's gotta hurt..
dreamt of sth seriously bad last night..kinda shaked me awake sia...prob one of the worst nightmares i've ever had (which i actually remember)..guess the exam thing is starting to catch up w me..sux.
in any case..a very uneventful yesterday went by, and i suspect a worst today..cos every1's gonna b muggin.haha..but here's what happened on the other world.
chelsea registered their biggest win of the season yet. A rousing 4-0 mauling of blackburn, includin a hat trick from eidur gudjohnson, pretty much answered the critics.
liverpool were again wasteful, and as what soccernet said, could have won several games w the chances they had in the opening 20 minutes. nevertheless, as benitez experiences his 1st merseyside winter, risse and garcia fired precision missles over dean kiely to seal an emphatic 2-0 victory over charlton..
in the land of the azzuri, del piero's double and a sublime assist ensured that the old lady of turin extend their lead at the top of the table to a 6, ahead of the exciting milan derby.its definitely threatening to turn the season into a 2 horse race between the old lady and one of the milan sides, with both sides from Rome disappointing in europe and domestically.
over is espana, surprise surprise! owen seemed to finally found his shooting boots, and his range as well. Real saw off the threat of current-champions valencia with a well struck owen goal from the outside of the area after neat work between zidane and raul, with the outside of his boot even! A 1-0 victory, despite dominating for most parts, leaves real just 1 point behind the defending champions who seem to still be suffering from the midweek nightmares from the San Siro, courtesy of Adriano and Co.
over in the far west, shaq seems to be enjoying himself over at the Heats.With 19 points, Shaq and the Heats thrashed Atlanta Hawks 113-82 in a preseason match. No wonder Heats are turning up the heat in downtown miami, and they certainly have the goods to land them in the eastern conference play offs if they keep this up.
Lookin forward to the clash between arsenal and man u.no prize for guessin who i'm rooting for, but no $ involved now.its purely entertainment only..and as far as i know, both sides will be fielding their full team..hopefully the match will end up like last year's, with ruud actually converting his kick instead of whacking it up into the bar. mayb jens lame-man will start gettin hallucinations and start committing his greek-comedies..

maia's out..oh well.can't blame the hoardes of leandra, dahpne, taufik, chris-mike-lee and sly fans for voting excessively..but gotta wonder, what happened to talent gauge? U ppl might disagree w me when i say maia sounds good, but based on last nights performance, how many of u dare say daphne and leandra both sang better then her? jus becos both of them sport 0 tatoos and hav smaller boobs (i'm not even gonna mention her son) and they automatically get the nod...even maia's last song was good..full of swing and groove and energy..as compared to olinda's "when a man loves a woman" for example..screw! dun be surprised if viewership is halved by nxt week's show..
speakin of maia...darn she's good.she sings well, speaks well, speaks her mind, honest, and what a bod! (dun berate me abt this..i'm jus being my honest self). her assets can put fiona xie to shame, and her voice can keep shakira on her toes! ok she may look ugly or fat, but whoever said i adore good looks? oh well...how i wish there's another maia out there who's abt my age! haha..
noticed lots of strange stuff today.on the bus back w justin, realised y so many ppl were crowded onto the 156 and eyes glued onto the screen : singapore idol's on! realised whenever they showed maia, most of the girls turn away, but when they show chris or sly, they turn back and gawk..queer..
on the train back, saw a grp of girls wearin super short skirt.they're pretty tall (atleast all taller then collin or vivien) and all looked the typical ah lian. after the disappointment of maia's exit, my attention was (to be frank) kinda cornered and caught by them (or..their skirts).to my further disappointment, they were so "acting cute" that i tot they escaped frm the children's home or sth..or some nursury for extremely immature ppl..gues i'm realli growing out of that "xiao mei mei" thingie ppl always tag me to..all thnx to maia!
alrite ppl, stop rubbin in that maia'a gone and stuff...its ovr and let it be ovr b4 i fly ovr to cadelcott to whack up the set!
played this little game in the library..pretty fun.for ppl out there who hav nuts to do, please do try the graffiti thingie at yahoo games. pretty fun especially when there are ppl out there (shall not name which particular BLOKE) who can't type as fast..or worst can't type!haha...kiddin.
still lagging like hell in studies..need to find that elusive rhythm...somehow..guess the army thing just won't leave my head now.someone slap me out of my dreams please!oh nvm..i'll do it myself..
suddenly remembered the show i watched this morning..the Outer Limit..pretty entertaining..so if u guys dun mind i'll narate it! its abt this cult-created virus spreadin around the US, and a group of 13 survivors (includin a doctor) are trapped, quarantine, in a hospital.everyone else's dead ofcos (looks abit like resident evil on tv). one day a soldier came along to deliver the vaccine, but the thing is there is enough dosage for 3 people. Of course any1 trapped in a hospital for 2 months awaiting cure would be pissed, but when the soldier removed his gas mask to show his disfigured and infected face, the doctor kept quiet instead. (he said sth like..the mask helps to cover the smell of the dead bodies..) the incubation period of the vaccine is 3 days (73 hours), and after mixing it into 3 portions the doctor hides it in her cupboard. the instructions attached to the vaccine says "healthy adults at the peak of their reproduction years" and "not advisable for children" when the survivors are mainly made up of old people, and a kid, hence explaining the tough choice for the doctor. by the 3rd day (5 hours short of the supposed 73 hour wait) a young bloke and his attitude-charged girl picked up a rifle and threatened the doc to administer the vaccine to them..ofcourse the 2 of them had the vaccine, and another young fellow had it to the disbelief and shock of the remaining survivors (the doc had suggested giving the vaccine to 3 ppl whose blood type matches the rest of the survivors in an attempt for the 3 vaccinated people to produce enuf red blood cells to provide more vaccines..sth lidat..and the 3 included an old lady and the little boy). however, the 3 young hot-shots took the vaccine, and suffered frm shock and died, thus suggesting that an ovrdosage had occured : all the survivors had somehow been immune frm the virus all these while! with this discovery, every survivor (except those 3, ofcos) went out and back to their lives (whatever's left of it).pretty cool story eh? find the moral of the story urself.peace~!

one thing's for sure..my life's dead boring.tmr i'll prob be draggin my heavy bag onto the bus at 10am and take that long route down to school...hav lunch w vincent and the guys and end up studyin till 6.happens so often it seems kinda..muscle memory eh?haha..oh well one more month of this crap..and i'll have one more month left to get back my fitness (whatever i had of it..) before i lose all my hair and start growing up in the communal toilets..dreadful eh?
but life's always good! frm what i learnt, school 2 (my school in BMTC) is nearer to the jetty and further away from the forest! hell..that's gotta be good news! not only do i hav a better chance of reaching mainland earlier, i also have the opportunity of sleepin with less mosquitoes! that's ofcos if the ppl at mindef decide NOT to swap the schools la..but judgin frm all that has been happening so far, i seriously hav my doubts.haha
apparently my reference to justin w the word "bloke" triggered some..unpleasant reaction frm him.so here's a change, bro..how bout...erm...jus bro?hahahaha...relax la..ur email add's brokes86...so i simply changed the "r" to a "l" lor.hahaha (now he scolded me an ass...haha)
went for training after muggin.wasn't a productive day cos i couldn't really concentrate..so decided to exercise instead.was pretty fun..especially cos i've been feeling rather plump and rotound lately hence a little exercise always felt fun.haha.felt light and felt energetic to be honest..but was kinda disappointed w the team's progress.the guys' fielding was ok..except nic's super inaccurate though however fast throw and lichung's pathetic fielding (no offence, dude). serjing was...kinda off today.but he didn't show any signs of it when i was joggin w him.the girls were...oh-my-goodness-please-help-my-silly-ass in serious trouble.andrew, kiamin and i took turns battin for them, and they were so...tai-tai-ish! god help us if we r to fight for 4th sia..sth serious has to be done and i seriously hope elsa implements my plan (ok..if any of u girls are readin this, esp liyan, i'm not insultin u ppl yea? i'm jus being my normal self : frightfully honest).of cos i'll be praying for a divine miracle in which a good pitcher frm somewhere decides to come to NJ.
kinda called and spoke to liyan abit on my boring way home, partly cos i felt bored and partly cos of..sth else.she looked horrible lately..and for all her attempts at making me feel happy whenever i'm down, i tot i shld make an effort too.guess it din really work la..but i tried..atleast.haha..she's troubled, and she seriously needs help..somehow..but li, u won't get any if u don't open up yea? doubt i'l be of any help but u always hav friends (kinda cliche thingie to say) and there's still a long way to go, so dun worry!
yankees lost.what the shit happened ?! for the 1st time in MLB history..they squandered a perfect 3-0 lead to lose 3-4 in the division championships..oh man that sux! all the star players are...pretty much stars i gues. bright but fading..only bright to us because the reality of their demise haven't set in yet, pretty much like the time taken for the light frm a star to reach our eyes (u guys know what i'm rambling abt eh? hope so) there goes the Bambino curse..and the 4 yr wait for silverware goes on! thang's pretty pissed abt this i think..but he's hardcore..so what's new?
before i go, happy bday sab! haha..haven't talked to my dear mei for..ages i think..and i'm sorry i nearly 4got ur bday.haha..but i stil remembered! that's all that matters!haha...fat chance.anw after our respective lvls lets go out somewhere to..celebrate or sth yea? b4 i head for camp la..haha.take care and all the best yea? i'm always here! haha..peace
realised sth.since i added that stupid little counter 2 days ago, there's 96 hits on this miserable blog already..and justin said its too much for a blog.oh well..apart frm the 20 hits i registered myself in the process of tryin out that reflex game on my blog..can't seem to remember knowing 76 people..or lets jus say 38 people who knows abt this blog (1 hit per person per day?)..didn't know whatever comes out of my stinkin mouth (or rotten fingers) could draw such a...crowd.cool..

before i start anything..jus wanna say VINCENT's joining me on the 8TH of JAN !! haha..that guy kept luffing at me during lunch that i'm so unlucky and stuff..and kept sayin things w lydia abt pw outing ont he 8th.haha..how do u feel now eh? haha..kiddin
anw..that makes 2 ppl i know who are reporting on the 8th.cool!any more?haha..if there are leave a note or sth..
went to school at 12 and..practically played 4 hours of badminton la.not too sure y it's so addictive..but it is! haha.justin that dumb bloke broke a racquet in the process la!haha...how amusing. but gotta admit..he made me run arnd so much my vomit nearly came out of my mouth a couple of times..end up breakin it.haha..retribution for making me run la! kiddin too
studied on in the lib after that w a few girls and vin + weijie.kinda tried doin econs mcq..but can't seem to get the concepts into my brain.haiz..but mr wong's super helpful.everytime i can't do a question, he's there to help in the library.hahaha..but think he's kinda thinkin "why is this student of mine so troublesome, and why is he asking me such basic questions?" well...sorry la mr wong!hahaha.i'm stupid what :)
oh well..gonna slp and get up and watch barca vs milan! oh yeah..good match.haha...provided i can wake up la.and weili/amanda/lydia, if u are reading this vincent and i decided to treat u ppl either after we get our 1st promotion, or after the whole 3 months of BMT! haha...so..u gotta send us off w ur handkerchiefs in hand! really pearly harbour lor...haha
alrite..i'm off to shower.cya peepz.peace

8th jan.remember this date cos this is the day u guys will finally be able to get rid of me!haha..well atleast for 3 years.damn it..whoever said good results for prelims = enter army early must be joking sia..or the army guys nvr heard of this joke when dey did the enlistment exercise. why am i in jan?!i know i wanted to go in early to enjoy all the.."early bird" benefits, but not THAT early la..there goes my chance to hav fun and stuff and my plan to be..a regular member of every club in singapore!haha..
the only guy i know who's goin in w me is glenn.haha..hope we end up as platoon mates dude! justin's in on the 6th, derwin as well.haha..those 2..must be some unlucky shit awaiting them sia.the commandos (ie henry and yeechwan) are in on the 7th..and yaozong's in on the 7th too!haha...haogen and kerv's both in on the 8th...of december!haha..told them to get atleast a silver dey dun wan..but the best is weijie and jy..they're goin in april la!in view of what yz said, jy prob will msg us tellin us how far he's completed his games or unlocked whichever cars, and wj will prob be tellin us which chiobu he met/saw/seeing/will see while the only thing resembling chio will be our own bunks..man i'm jealous.not too sure abt the rest of the guys..gonna find out and envy them.haha
but..aren't u guys like afraid !? haha..frankly speaking i am.not too sure why.the idea of goin to tekong has been more of an urban legend all these while..and tales frm seniors definitely didn't help. a little apprehensive of the tekan-ing, the full body pack runs, the obstacle course and lots more.haha..gues its thru this can we grow up frm boys to men eh? its not the idea of being punished that scares me..its the idea of..growing up and leaving the comfort zone i gues.once i step onboard the ferry to tekong my life's gonna change..and there's no room for the childish mistakes i'm fond of making..sux.haha..girls will nvr understand.
another boring day passed yesterday..w/o much mugging actually.shit.i realli gotta kick start this stupid engine of mine..today's the day!
dad bought a new car!as in..he bought the car already..and it arrived yesterday!its not a gigantic car or a super expensive car..but its a nice car anyways! its a...toyota camry or sth lidat..he wanted toyota cos its the most reliable (accordin to him) amongst all the cars in the market, and its big enuf (actually he only cares abt the boot size..it has to be big enuf for his golf bags).but in anycase this car kinda rocks sia..spacious and quite good looking, abit heavy though..but i dun care!as long as i get to drive it :P fat hope sia..
it was only yesterday did i realised the true cost of living.dad's car cost abt..$120k..and its a toyota camry (alright..its listed as a luxury sedan) and i heard a BMW cost $150k-180k..man..that's the price u pay to get urself a 3-4 room flat!i realli do need to work my ass and everything else off in order to earn that kinda money..cos right now i'm struggling w the $70 i hav! perhaps vin's idea of money and power above all else actually..holds some truth? nah..rather go for the heart than materialistic wants.haha...
man u drew..again.guess whatever i said of wayne rooney is true eh? nvr believed in buyin him..and for that price for that matter.oh well..time will tell.but frankly i'm gettin disappointed sia..
real won!haha..abeit unconvincingly w a 1-0 michael owen goal.man..that's good! michael "goal machine" owen can start scoring!yeah!though i didn't realli watch the match, the match report made it sound as though real were shooting at target sheets in the opening exchanges.haha..that's gotta be worth watching!
liverpool..drew la.guess its a point gained for them and 2 points lost for depor?hahahaha...i'm gonna incur the wrath of anfield
guess i found the 1st big casualty of the tournament : roma.3 games 3 losses..man they suck! ok..bad thing to say..but their performance has been truly astonishing in the other way.so much for the goldenboy of italy and the pride of stadio olympico.
frm vin's blog : yz msg me saying he sian hy's one day later than him. though yaozong didn't say anythin in his, but its kinda sad la. thought it'l b great to hav some1 frm the class to end up as my bunk mate.haha..nvm la mayb OCS lor..but i'm gettin ahead of myself.haha..vincent has lots of humorous jibes at army life...esp after pearl harbour.haha..apart frm that little joke he did w yz, he told me to.."take care of "her" for me".haha..dick la.i'll take care of "her" the BEST way i can.hahaha..whoever that "her" is..oh btw, dun worry if no girl's waiting for u at the jetty la vincent, cos i'll end up like u.haha..den the few of us bachelors can enjoy our own company sia..hahaha

in school now.jus had that little consultation things w Mr Yee..and found it exceptionally beneficial.its as though i nvr attended a single GP lesson and i'm finally learning what i'm supposed to learn in a GP paper.and its a wonder i got a B for GP..
for once i completely disagree w the idea that Mr Yee is "evil" (pretty much the way i wrote the essay on "all punishment in itself is evil" ) he was so patient w the grp of us it was wonder he could actually last so long w/o gettin sick of his own voice. If i were in his shoes, i would hav screamed my head off at the seemingly repetitive questions asked abt AQ again and again and again and again.he's good...shld hav realised it long ago.
farewell today ain't so much of a farewell i tot it would be.up to the last day, we were still made to sit on the floor (sth i'm definitely not used to.all chinese high students are definitely not used to). in yaozong's own words, "humiliate us on the last day". oh well..its the school rite?so much for good school..the farewell's more of..listening to encouraging words frm mr koh regardin our results and what it meant for us (not sure his true message really got thru to us) and a super boring and completely redundant speech by the incumbent of a principal.in any case, the chaotic scenes soon ruptured after that, w every1 scrambling to take a picture w every1 else.haha.ended up takin a few pics..not having as happening a day as VINCENT!haha.he went arnd taking pics w nearly every girl he can find la.haha..horny kid.to be frank, kinda enjoyed gettin flashed at most of the time la..kinda adds more buzz but the thing is..too much smiling infrnt of cameras make ur smile grow fake and after some time, my inexperienced cheek muscles start to cramp.this means...i gotta smile more i gues.kinda wondered y the girls love to take pictures..oh well..mayb un-photogenic me shld jus shut up
anw..Mr Wong (i'm gettin respectful and polite) cried!its the first time i've seen a male teacher cry..and to see him cry infront of us was..a truly touching moment.he was startin to tear as he spoke to us abt how sad he was to leave us and stuff..and that suddenly made me guilty.All these while he has been the teacher i tot i could simply ignore and stuff..and we had alot of times simply did that.but he was much more a teacher then we give him credit for..and for him to stay back till 5 plus each day to see his students (even when he looked awfully bored as he did today) is jus testament to him being a great teacher.now i really feel guilty..
in any case..sth pissed me off when we were seeing Mr yee (noticed how polite i've become after the meeting?haha.no subterfuge here absolutely!). He came out frm a meeting w the teachers, and he told us the irony of the meeting. Peiling (the outgoin council pres) spoke fervently of the devotion of the teachers to our endless education by goin out of their way to give the more forgetful amongst us consultation and remedials, and that sparked off endless applause, even amongst teachers. However during the meeting, the teachers were advised not to provide such "services" as this only showed that they did not do their work in class.man..that sux.is the school tryin to tell the teachers not too help their students in their most dire times of need? does the school know that some students require more time and help than others (this argument is so old i can't believe the school conveniently left out) and there could also be a possibility that the students of NJC hav been so studious that they hav gone further in depth w their thinkin and comprehension of concepts, so much so they require assistance at moments of further realisation (who am i kidding rite?) in any case, this irony is practically bordering on sacarsm if u ask me (realise i may be jumping on erronous conclusions yet again) and it only adds to the distaste for this school.sux ain't it?
some how or other, the prospect of bein a lawyer seems to fade day by day..and i'm more lookin to workin w ppl by helping then workin w ppl by crushing them w my own will and words (i only wanna work w ppl incase u can't see).so...i dunno.
horny bday boy's still workin on his blog.now he needs a template. help..any?
peace..

I'm a freak to the core
Get a dose once, you gon' want some more
My tongue touch ya girl, ya toes bound to curl
This exclusive shit I don't share with the world
I have you up early in the mornin, moanin
Back shot, proper or low can't stop us
Been a fiend for this since Rakim made hits
Get the position down pat, then it's time to switch
I'll rock the boat, I'll work the middle
I speed it up, straight eat it up....
and I ain't in the hood with my toast out loc'n
I'm in the telly workin up a sweat strokin
Tonight's the night, you can fall in love
You can call your mama right now, tell her you met a thug
I pop a lot of shit cause I can back it up
My left stroke's the death stroke

dead beat tired..not sure why.started frm 2 nights ago when i didn't slp till like...430am and woke up at 630am chattin like a drunk dick.i know i've been thru nights w/o a slp but this is..unusually sapping..and i'm still feeling it now..
anw yesterday was...boring.the turn out for the open day was like..so pathetic even Ms Ho agreed with me.and as expected, no eye candy.haha (man i'm desperate). anw went arnd tryin to get those degenerating muscles to work again, and surprisingly i'm still retain my throw and swing.cool! but apart frm that, the day was downright BORING!
spoke to serjing a little durin or little lunch-escape.he was lookin like...dead ever since i caught up w him early this week, and it was only yesterday did he tell me why.kinda sad he wanna leave..but gues its his choice.i wanted to leave as well, but the class kept me here.guess he cant find the bond i found..sad.another member gone if nothin changes..but i'll choose to hope that yesterday's little bonding activities manage to keep him upbeat and keep him here..i wish..
the match was quite dull too.for the first time in like...3/4 of a year hav i seen SO many seniors back.haha.though i'm more of a new comer and dun realli know them,i still managed to talk to some of those old guys.and frm what i gathered...NS sux.oh man..haha.in anycase, the match was squarely one-sided towards the seniors ofcourse.haha.it dawned to me how much NJ softball has degenerated over the years and how much we may need some1 like ronghan.hope i'm wrong though...but the current crop realli needs hard work.the seniors made pork chops out of them, and i was kinda disappointed at the level of progress (or relative no-progress) shown..even when i was the umpire! played in 2nd base later on, and realised how fun it is!haha..i realli shld have started 2nd base sia..its so much more exciting.and for once i felt the infield had some life...agree?haha..i wish..
what kinda guy will make his girl choose a him over a passion? If he's half the guy he should be, shouldn't he let his girl make her own choices? jus because he didn't have the time to follow his passion doesn't mean she can't do it as well, rite? i may be jumping to erroneous conclusions here, but whatever it is it ain't sth i'll take kindly..actually tot she had more character..i wish..
dad's buyin a new car..atlast.not that i'm gonna drive it, but i was startin to dislike the current one.always felt..claustrophobic when i'm in it.anw the new car's comin on tues..so that means i gotta say gd bye to the current one b4 it goes to the scrap.time to move on i gues. come to think of it..my dad buys cars like he buys houses.this new house was for him and mum to quietly live the rest of their lives in..a transition frm the old house where they brought us up in.when i was bornt my dad had a car, and changed it when my 2nd bro came along, changed it when my youngest bro came, and changed it when we were young teens, and changing it again now.cool! learnt abit on COE frm dad as well...gues my plan to get a 2nd hand car seems..not so far fetched already! jus that i need the dough..darn.loan mayb?hope army pays well..haha.i wish..
nothin new in planet football..man u drawing, real slipping, barca winning, arsenal thrashing.oh..sth's new! chelsea's losing! and of all ppl..to anelka!guess serhwee's hopes of liverpool winning chelsea is..jus a little off la.haha.kinda grew bored of epl (or soccer?) cos of its...unique same-ness thru out most matches..gettin what yinghao said he felt : the lack of complusion to watch epl matches.but he has a girl..i don't.so what's my reason?
speakin abt girls..everyone's gettin one now.nic found a new one..pretty good sia that guy. sj's looking at one (if nic ain't lying)..n many more.oh well...my bad luck i gues.the girls i like treat me more as a friend then anything else and there's no way i could possibly pop the question when i'm no more den a buddy, a brother or..sister.the girls who like me (ok..to satisfy my critics out there ie most of the girls i know..there ain't many) are girls..who i treat only as friends.or worst.how good can life get eh?haha..i wish..
suddenly had a change of heart in terms of career.suddenly felt a strong urge to do..economics!haha..no idea why.the sudden thought of manipulating interest rates and stuff appealed to me.but my econs ain't fantastic..so..hmm..but in any case my maths ain't too.so it kinda balances out my back-up dream of being an engineer..mayb i really shld hav taken up arts, eh? i speak better then i write, and my brain thinks more of ideas then numbers.i like to deal with ppl more den objects, and i feel more relax amongst words, not figures (oh..ofcourse i love a PARTICULAR type of figures..if u know what i mean.haha). so..what shld i aspire to be? did i choose the right course? haha..i wish..
oh well..suddenly lots of wishing in here.haha.now all i need is..a tooth fairy!seen any?haha..anw pearl harbour's jus showed "to be continued"...so shall i.haha..peace

finally...JERRY IS OUT! oh man...the inevitable did happen.haha.and his parting words were sth like "no matter how much criticism i had....blah blah blah"yea glad u know.hahaha.think his church suddenly forgot to vote for him lor.but maia's hot too!she jus looks good in that outfit..dunno y.haha.
anw softball's disbanding.sth like no top 4 finish nxt year and it'l be closed.this sux..but come to think of it..what else can u expect frm a shit school like njc?even the yong tau fu aunty complaint abt the school sia.haha.come to think of it..i only know 4 aunties frm the whole canteen after 2 years here lor..kinda lousy.it took me only a year to know the aunties in tenderfresh at coro!haha..some achievment.haha
read weijie's blog.kinda funny what he wrote...sth on the class guys la.here's what he said abt me : Hongyi. This is a guy who will always keep himself ahead of the times. Can trust his taste when it comes to fashion. He's also this super buaya king who will only set his sights on little mei-meis. Lolz. Gotta say he's those kinda guy who's popular with girls. But he can be quite serious too, especially when it comes to exam periods. Oh man, scary sia. Haha. He's definitely a true friend to have around you who will always be there for you whenever you need him. Anyway, even though he wishes to be a lawyer, I can see him becoming an insurance agent or property agent in future. With his eloquence, trust him to make it big too. hahaha..kinda nice but funny too. but well...i'm not that scary..am I? thnx weijie anw for the realli nice things.haha..
not realli gonna do the same cos it'l end up being...like writing testimonials for friendster (and i hate the notion) but jus wanna say all of u guys have played an important part in my life and i shld realli treasure it..and i do!haha..
in any case...still can't figure 0ut what is spider spirit and sun wu kong.now the clue is its sth that u can watch..and its not good.vin has a realli nice idea what it is..but is it realli true?amanda refuses to say..and lydia and xiangyun will only say to me at my grave.sign..haha.must be sth REALLY bad!haha..
muggin hasn't kicked into full force..but i'm gettin the hang of it..mayb too late cos its only 19 days left..sux.but that's not gonna stop me frm playin tmr (if we ever did).haha.went to school to study today..w vincent ofcos..and that guy farted in my face!! oh man..that's like...YUCKS! VINCENT!!haha..and the thing is he sleeps alot la..quite a number of times i caught him sleeping while working..haha..but gues its taking its toll on everyone..sux.no wonder i'm gettin alot more tired..
speakin of slp..there's this lady in australia who sleeps walk!but the thing is...she sleep walks into bed w strangers and hav casual sex every night! she claims she has some sleepin disorder..but hey..honestly when u're havin sex dun tell me u'l jus slp and not react? haha..unbelievable sia..as if she's some machine.
oh well..gonna end here la..how am i gonna tell this girl how i feel when i know my dreams and wishes will come to nought? good question eh? peace

this is the time of the year when everyone start singing auld lang syne..not yet? oh well its near anyway.officially, we are out of school..which should be a thing of celebration in the past.not now i guess..everyone's stressed out and stuff..so i'l like to tell everyone to RELAX A LITTLE !! yup..
muggin realli sux..the more i mug the more stuff i realise i haven't touched..which is a little alarming considerin the stage in my life i'm in now.by now i shld hav already cleared the whole syllabus and only sharpening my sword..not burnin it over a furnace now and hope for it to cool..darn..how i wished i started earlier..
someone once told me off-hand its all my fault s09's doin so badly..cos accordin to him..very early in 2003 i've always been the one instigating ppl to go out, chit chat, play, watch movies etc etc etc.so much so i'm more or less the catylst of poor performance (as reflected by my own grades).well...since its off-hand i won't say much except..mayb this is y i'l remember s09 more.for all the fun times and stuff (and ofcos..the promises which nvr materialised)..but the extent in which i was the architect is certainly debatable cos i dun remember (and i've nvr been) being that influential..am i?nvr tot so...doubt so.but can u imagine any other kinda class u would wanna be in other than in..s09?haha..
saw bingzhi the other day in school..and he's an officer in the army!man..that gotta rock..and that got me thinkin abt what i wanna do in the army.certianly havn't deviated frm my love in either helicopters or tanks (armoured battalion..here i come!) but bein in OCS..that would actually make me stay on for a couple of years i gues.kinda like the vow i made in npcc..if i got the SI and stuff..would be good ain't it?jus dun giv me some screwed up platoon and screwed up instructors..please...
for those guys in class ( and those who think this mite help in GP essays) a survey done by Durex (u guys definitely know this brand) shows some pretty nice figures..
1. singaporeans had sex 79 times in the past year, and spent 16 minutes on foreplay
2. singaporeans are losing their virginity at the age of 19
3.singaoreans are worried abt HIW and Aids, with abt 70% citing it as their top concern (phew..)
4.yet, 4 out of 10 singaporeans had unprotected sex without knowing their partner's sexual history (kinky!)
haha..interesting eh? but the french are like..doin it at an average of 137 times a year.even the japanese (for all their AV and porn stuff) are doin it at only 46 times a year! man..that sux.in summary, singaporeans are still way below the world average number of sexual romps (103 this year) and still alot faster in foreplay (or lacking in foreplay) with the world average at 19.7 minutes. but for cavalier ppl..why waste time rite?better get it ovr and done w b4 ur partner changes his/her mind! haha
speakin abt GP..gerard yee told us sth kinda funny.while goin thru the very very philosophical passages of HCJC prelim 2004, he was sayin sth like HCJC prepares their students w this kinda passages so that "they know what to say during PSC scholarship interviews"..and "isn't it better to be on this side of the canal?" haha..kinda mocking la.but that's the truth i gues..sux
kinda lookin 4ward to this sat..haven't touched a softball in ages and can't wait to get a swing at it..haha.but i suddenly remembered sth ( no thanks to huimin)..is she comin?darn..it's gonna be weird.sorry li, the idea of bakin cookies and givin it to her seems super out of the way..no pt turnin back on the path i'm walkin jus to slip and fall again eh?jus hope this sat rox (and hopefully i get to catch some hot girls ! haha..)
england won, beckham's dumb..what else? but can't help it. if i get bombarded every single day in the papers abt how ridiculous i am or how lousy i am when i'm like puttin in a dozen or so QUALITY crosses and scored a wonderous goal worthy of a thousand replays..i'll end up losin my head.so save that poor man! he's doin all he can (and more) for his country...so y is he gettin all the flak? if someone like lampard or stevie G performed the same way..everyone will start clamouring them w praises..yet becks get almost zilch?
and i simply love ronaldinho..he smiles (or smirks) all the time at his opponents! gotta be the most humiliating thing in Planet Football sia..imagine lookin at ur opponent wearin that silly grin on his face when he misses chances or when his passes goes astray and laughin abt it the whole match.as if he's playin w u (and most of the time he is toyin w u) and thrashin u arnd (which he certainly does!)..that's as good as sainthood..samba style!haha..
peace ~!
gues i kinda feel better now..less cranky thnx to friends..so here's a few :
1.thnx justin for that..rather gay msg..haha
2.cheers to the guys of s09..
3.same for the girls..haha
4.and joy to those who still care for me

i'm in the worst mood possible.jus quarrelled w my mum (tat is she bitch arnd and scream arnd and i keep quiet and admit defeat..the price to pay for being a filial and respectful son) and it certainly didn't feel good..but when did it ever felt good?!
found out alot of things today..some good..mostly bad.for those who have no idea, a girl's actions and words (however twisted and innocent looking) can reduce a guy to borderline insanity.so watch out and stay alert..not everythin is what it seems to be, but i can be wrong.u decide,man.
had a nice chat w vin..weird cos i've nvr told any1 how i felt abt certain ppl,but great cos for once i can open my mouth w/o fear of gettin myself into knee-deep shit.i do respect u enuf to know u will keep it to urself.times hav changed so much..re-opening a buried coffin can bring abt the worst form of retribution. price to pay for being awfully honest? hope not..
did the dumbest thing ever.somehow managed to persuade that dumb pea brain of mine to drag my sorry butt frm sembawang back to punggol via the train w a 10kg weight in one hand.no seats until sengkang..imagine how pissed i was when a little boy managed to climbed onto a seat jus when i was abt to sit down.
i know a blog's meant for the world to read..but has any1 ever told u to mind ur own business?whatever i write in here is meant for ppl i know and ppl i care abt..are u?

hmm..food for my thoughts.
kinda found lots of funny stuff (atleast to me, so dun mock me abt it) happenin arnd..
anw, england won 2-0 against wales..and beckham scored a fantastic winner to send soccer fans all the way back to that fateful day in 2001 in the heatre of dreams. in that game he was so inspirational the commentator said "give him a knighthood!" in that match alone he made the whole world wanna sit up and listen to how painful breakin a metatarsal can be..and it is that match ppl shld watch whenever they wanna say beckham suck..cos form is temporary, class is permanent.all ovr the pitch even when he's 29..hounding whelsh players like a wild bulldog, and crossing the ball so elegantly its as though the ball was made of paper instead of synthetic leather.and what can u say abt the goal...w.o.r.l.d.c.l.a.s.s. now the question is..y did he (and owen too) play so well for england when they r periphiral figures in real? home sickness perhaps?
also in soccernet..Barcelona keen to sign 12-year-old. oh man..talk abt ridiculous.imagine being a 12 yr old guy, jus startin puberty, startin to look at girls for all they are to be looked at, and receiving 120000 euros a year for a four-year contract with their youth squad.talkin abt rich, spoilt players man..whoever came up w such a notion should go talk to the source of the money and not the players!but i kinda like this 12 yr old kid..bet he has no idea he's famous now and bet he's probably stunned to know he's worth more den his parents sia..in $ sense ofcos.
woodgate's out again.for the nxt 5 months i heard.oh man..that guy rox.for a player who was supposedly jus 10 days frm recovering..he's another 5 months out.if i was playin CM..he's the first to go sia.all this injury certainly made him miss the ball as much as..rio did! and rio continued training..what's woodie gonna be like? come to think of it..how is it that he's so..fragile? if he's so..delicate and injury prone..how did he play pro soccer in the first place?!poor real..dey bought "the wall" frm roma who's more like "the pore", and now they got a guy who can't play at all..not even touch the ball for that matter..how i love my body :)
some 74 yr old guy ran 100m in 16s.tell me..is that good or what?i certainly think its good! cos the last time i remembered..i ran 100m in arnd 13s..and if that old dude is only 3 seconds behind me...he's damn good! i wish i could ran 100 m in 60s when i 'm that age..dun tink my bones gonna hold in its place la.
jus found out sth..it cost $2000 to learn how to drive..wow...with that kinda money i can actually race daytona enuf to learn abt braking and steering and gear changes! i even get to learn how to turn a bend la! of with jus 2.5% of the money, i can get myself burnout3 and learn to drive arnd in a city! man..its expensive to live as a human..
but if i ain't a human..what will i wanna be? well..i certainly wanna be a turtle in the zoo. not only can i slack my way arnd the aquarium, i get to live to 100 yrs old and see all the little curious heads lookin straight at me as though lookin any harder will make them grow a shell..gues what i learnt on discovery channel!haha.."got to know?"
vin kinda stunned me when he msg me late last nite abt sth..but kinda appreciate it la dude.but to think of it..he's lvl of perception is certainly amazing! how did he perceive what many wouldn't jus by readin a few lines? he must either hav the same experience..or worst..a psychic! haha..but thnx anw..jus makes me think abt how amazing u realli are.some ppl hav that same trait..appear innocent and keep quiet..but deep in thought..makes life even more unpredictable aint it? u nvr know wat ur frnds are actually thinkin abt!haha..so it pays to be some1 like me..stupid and honest and frank and open minded (and open mouthed la..)..budden again that's equivalent to an..idiot.haha amazing..

lots happened..and like what some old dude said many many years ago, everything will turn out good.it certainly did in this occasion.some old man said that everything bad that happened is there to to strengthen and make it stronger.i sure hope so.whatever happened yesterday was only a misunderstanding, and since we all understood each other liao, there's no need for apologies, dude.my fault too for being irrational when i was reading it..and takin it too seriously becoz of my bad mood when i was readin it.so..cheers man!let the frndship grows and leave that incident behind for good.
yz's bein scary again.read his blog today and realised..he's so stressing me out.but its true...3 more school day before we don't see each other for..a couple more days.yup.but like what vin said..it signifies an end to a splendid 2 years (however splendid u wanna look at things..u can always look at things frm different angles) of life in 03s09..and the start of another passage in life.kinda sucky yea?but in any case..would like to take this opportunity to thank the whole class for making 03s09...03s09!yup.kinda suck at this kinda stuff.thanks to the guys especially who made my days in class fun and lively, and the girls for adding that little bit of surprise and excitement.gonna miss u all (though its still kinda early).but its time to progress and move on..
progression..what a fascinating thing.luckily it remains within the border of fascination and not shock thanks to continuation.ppl i know frm tchs followed all the way thru to nj (ppl like jy,sh,hate to say..yh :P and the likes) certainly made nj life alot better..definitely
but y am i ramblin on abt this? in 3 days time nuthin much's gonna change.my ankle's healin though..but gues what my neighbour kinda complained a little cos the walls are...dirty thnx to my ball.haha.i din complain when he was singing his brains out at home..darn old man.
still haven't put my finger on what i wanna do in the future..still hav no idea really.for whatever ppl can say, i certainly ain't the kind who will take risk..atleast not a lot la. so that means i'm gonna find a decent lookin (certainly decent) wife and settle on a decent and simple (even if its boring) job and have a decent simple family of 2 kids. nice plan? but then again with today's economy..what kinda job meets that criteria? my dad got a scare a couple of weeks ago when his company decided to retrench ppl.his company..(a subsidiary of aT&T, which is supposedly a electronic/telecommunication giant in the US) decided to lay off a handful of engineers. mind u..they are the folks who went thru uni and got their engineering certs..some with honours even and not some dudes with engineering diploma from nyp..and even they aren't safe.my dad and a couple other senior managers were save (i think due to loyalty and experience) and a number of senior technicians and managers got the sack..man..that's tough.in simple words : even w a uni cert u ain't safe!
hope lawyering course certainly is nice sia.if not i'm gonna turn to sth simple like..join the army?
b4 i end..happy bday lydia!haha..enjoy bein..18! peace

jerry got thru to nxt round of singapore idols.oh well what's new.its as expected as me shitting in the toilet every morning.jus like shit comin out frm my ass-hole, some peeps simply dunno talent-less singer-wannabes frm the gifted.go on and vote..after all its singapore idols.
been surfin arnd..most ppl found their rythm and are movin on steadily..i'm not.darn..this is not good.signs are showin me that i'm lagging, but my body jus tells me to quit.each night i sit and look at my books, my eyeslids fail infrnt of the 2 gellatine spheres i call my eyes.my brain, for all its mass and supposed complexity (ofcos compared to the mosquito i jus killed) shuts down when the moon rises..even a mosquito's brain still works.help is definitely needed..
sprained my fucked up ankle again..this time doin sth stupid.was jugglin a soccer ball outside my house (i'm gettin frm bad to worst!the max i could do today is 10 b4 my left leg fails on the 11th) when i decided to quit it and do a rainbow.i did the rainbow..lovely rainbow infact..so lovely i didn't watch my landing and sprained my ankle.fuck..so much for exercising.luckily its a small one..but ain't my life jus screwy?
finally got sick my this template.the more i look at it..the worst i feel.any1 w space for me to load pictures on to?will pay for every pic i load up..of cos dun be a sucka and demand extravagantly la.what r frnds for yea?hav a heart and..charge nothin =)
jus watched england vs greece..becks rox in the match.y can't he produce now? it was after that match did i buy his jersey..now i can't find that jersey (prob some dickhead borrowed it and didn't return)..mayb that's y!i wish..but hopin for england win.if not i'm gonna lose another $20.oh well..like shit comin out frm my ass-hole too.
been thinkin of what jared said of shawn..very true i presume.

lots to say..no place to say them..scared to say them for fear of insultin some, scared to say for gettin myself involved in some..so tell me people, what's a diary for ?! how on earth am i not gonna let every1 who comes here read abt my life if i actually wanted to have one ? if i'm readin some1 else's work..am i not wrong to choose not to let others read mine ?
anw jus read yz's blog..kinda funny. he wrote sth like : brother, stop betting soccer liaoz la..change to 4d la...i told u 4Ds got more prospect..plus the team u buy dunno y always lose one ..hahaha...as ur friend, really dun wanna see u lose till pants drop leh...hahah . haha..quite true la.but that's where u're wrong dude..in 4D u hav to hit 4 numbers..in soccer u only hav 2 teams. so count the probability la!haha..but the pt is..i'm like losing $ though it came frm punggol park. wat's up sia..shld i stop b4 i lose more money den i deserve to hav? is it fair to people who gave me the money in the first place?
supposed to watch Singapore Idols w lydia and some of the girls last nite, but can't get there in time (cos i live in punggol) and..not realli fantastic to be the only guy amongst 4 girls.i dun wanna be left sittin alone there, if u get what i mean. the show yesterday ain't realli fantastic la..their voices all sound...incredibly the same to me. Its as though there's a unwritten rule that if u want ppl to think u can sing, sing as though u're an american or jus clip ur nose. (i know yinghao's gonna luff when he sees this..but hey, the way i speak is different frm the way they sing!) their singing's so...unvaried i couldn't help thinkin..y not jus make it a modelling contest since there's no "product differentiation" amongst ur voices?
btw..maia realli fat meh? oh man...that sux.haha..but nvm. she's still one hot woman! love her personality and attitude sia..that's the kinda girl i'll always look for and look up to..
wasted a whole day yesterday cos of travelling to school..did some econs mcq and found myself surprisingly...ok at it.hmm..if only i was bornt earlier.darn.
suddenly tot of sth..heard my dad said sth like b4 he gets too old to do anythin he wants to be at wimbledon and the all england open (badminton competition)..suddenly reminded me of what i want in my life..not too sure what course i'll take, but w my current pathetic status i'm not too sure what is available.my dream of being a lawyer (cos of constant arguments i gues) suddenly doesnt seem too bright a choice..and i dun wanna fall back on engineering.accountancy? a life in the Force? darn...but 1 thing's for sure..there are 4 places i wanna see b4 i get too old. 1. old trafford when man u take on liverpool 2. Santiago Berneubau when barcelona visit 3. Nou Camp when real visit 4. Yankees Stadium during the conference finals.haha..cool sia..
oh 1 lst thing...if anyone's super bored..go nikefootball.com and check out the badass game. see if u can beat my score sia..got a pro rating of 9.4 out of 10. beat that! haha...peace!

ps if any1 finds the magic stick/clit thing offensive...tell me yea?haha..was jus luffin at a remix of the song i did myself..damn pathetic.that kinda rules me out as a dj

before i start anythin..jus wanna thank nj043 for the wonderful outing on tuesday!haha..kinda needed to go out and relax a little la..and what's a better way to do that den to go out and crap for hours eh?haha..ofcoz u noe i didn't think it will turn out well..and the day threatened to change my losing streak of prediction when vincent said "f*ck you" to lyd durin lecture...the kinda response i'll giv if i wanted to say "haha..yeah rite!"..or like what vin will say la.."wah lao..."yeah...u get the pic.but lyd was annoyed and it threatened to make things worst..but gues my losing streak continues (thankfully!) and we enjoyed the day.haha.had so much fun i actually managed to get a haircut! lyd will say it looks as if i was visiting a brothel..but honestly the lady who cut my hair was kinda...suckier den the one who did my hair when i first came to punggol!haha...missed her sia.but anw..dunno y dey had that idea when its a perfectly decent location and decent salon, and duno y dey kept sayin i was staring at her (oh my..she has a killer bod and more sia..slim and proportionate..and VERY nicely dressed..yaozong will love to be in my shoes! :P) but hey..i wasn't wearin specs lor..how to see ? (oh..did i jus contradict myself w the prev bracket?!) anw the hair cut wasn't fantastic..though she washed my hair twice.haha.and she was like...climbing all over me while tryin to cut my hair la..so indirectly contact was made (i must stress INDIRECTLY hor..) but hey..its a professional business!haha..now i look like a butch la..no jap style whatsoever...but i dun care la.gonna try all the salons i can b4 i go for the $1 NS standard cut.the only blot of the day is weili losing her phone...sad stuff. but hey girl! cheer up la..atleast u didn't get punched in the eye yeah?haha..if i can i'll save up my $$ these 2 months and get u one for christmas lor..haha.
oh did i talk abt neoprints?haha...went to take again sia..and vincent's on his gaying tricks again!haha..kinda amusing and certainly adds to the day la..a day tat was supposedly ruined by him..cool..
realised i'm lost in what's happenin arnd me..totally lost. its like a robber steal sth frm my house and i'm sittin there not knowing la.haha.whenever i here class gossips i'll be so lost..not too sure why budden again..that can only be good i gues.the less i know the less involved i am and the less complications and stuff.
lyd wrote a letter for all in nj043 (i'm guessin again)..kinda nice la..reminds me alot of the fun times back in 1st 3 mnths..all the chaotic fun we had as a class...shall stop b4 i start ramblin abt irrelevant stuff.but one sentence realli struck me : juz rem to not be too nice to every ger u meet la..cuz not all are worthy of ur nice-ness to 'em yah?
well...i'll definitely remember that..but come to think of it...its not realli a matter of me being too nice to every girl..its more like..sth all guys will do? every guy will be nice to girls arnd them..but mayb i'm jus more gullible?dunno..someday i gotta learn how not to be so easily fooled sia..but i doubt its possible cos...its in my nature to be...exploitable?
oh btw peepz..need ur help.whoever's good at chinese...tell me what the hell is the link b/w spider spirit and sun wu kong!haha...its like..a riddle comin out of lydia's mouth and i've no idea what has that gotta do w me (in any feasible way )..so any1 can help?haha..can't get it out of my head.
justin's goin thru shit again..can tell la he looks dead tired and looks...frustrated.accordin to him...there's ONE person who actually made him feel better...and its a super unlikely source..gues he's feelin what i felt la.regret, remorse, exhaustion and the idea that he made a choice out of compulsion other den compassion sinkin in..so if u tink u r the light at the end of his tunnel..help him out yea?
updatin's gonna start bein a half-chore soon when muggin gets into gear..but dun bother la.some ppl jus likes to read and talk abt it as "read someone else's blog" or "some idiot said" and stuff..oh well.
peace out~!

Feels like you're making a mess
You're hell on wheels in a black dress
You drove me to the fire
And left me there to burn
Every little thing you do is tragic
All my life, oh was magic
Beautiful girl
I can't breathe
I got a disease
Deep inside me
Makes me feel uneasy babyI can't live without you
Tell me what I am supposed to do about it
Keep your distance from it
Don't pay no attention to me
I got a disease
I think that I'm sick
But leave me be while my world is coming down on me
You taste like honey, honey
Tell me can I be your honey
Be, be strong
Keep telling myself it that won't take long till
I'm free of my disease

speakin abt it...she did kinda well for prelims.congratz den.2 Bs which were like 1 mark away frm As..a C and a D i heard.not too bad..gues she made the right choice..a choice of plummetin me into the absolute bottom of a bottomless pit..while propellin her to the roof of the pinnacle of excellence..some decision.somehow, i miss her.sad to say its a one way thing...very one way.
come to think of it ( not that i ever wanted to..) y am i actually so depressed? i've always told myself it was not meant to be..and after all she did i was more or less tellin myself i'l bury it as soon as logic and situation permits..i've even went arnd tellin those who mattered how regretful i've felt for makin that fateful decision last december. irrational..mayb. illogical..definitely.it took away alot from me..and because of it i left ppl who do matter out of my life..for it..for her.hard to talk abt its worth..but it certainly took a hell lot frm me.(i'm gettin repetitive..)
after all its unpleasantness..it took a huge turn for the better..and i was startin to love it..so much so i was startin to think i've indeed made a great decision and it was all a blessin in disguise..mayb that's y i regret so much now..mayb that's y i've been wallowing in my own pitiful hole of morbid suffering and wistful thinkin..wonderin what could have been..
sadly its all 1 way. all the sweet talk in darkness abt waitin..all the tears..are empty in all sense of the word.whenever i see her..she looks happy and confident..independent and content w what she has arnd her..an all-so-familiar cheerfulness..the same thing which drew me to her like flies to rotting flesh..
y am i still hidin in its shadow? y am i still baskin in its near -faded afterglow when its so evident that the "what-ifs" i've been hopin for are never gonna be anythin more den "ifs"..y can't i let go? i hav no idea..
lookin at myself now i can roughly tell y..i've definitely gave it too much..so much at the expense of others that my negligence to others is so evident i've nvr felt more of a stranger den i'm feelin now..and its to such an extent i can't find a possible way to salvage the predicament..mayb that's y i'm still here.mayb that's y i'll still not laugh..mayb that's y i'll still not smile..
when will i smile den? mayb nvr..mayb not till the gaping black hole can be closed w time..or filled w the same wholeness i once felt..i once tot i felt.and it'l probably not happen anytime soon..for i still live in poignant regret of it..

haven't been updatin in a while..but nvm la.not realli in the mood too...writter's block i gues.haha.learnt alot today in school..especially for GP.for once, i finally realised how useful GP lessons are!it was like..inspiration flowed when i was listenin to the tutors blabbin on abt the essay questions and how ridiculously many of us answered them (me included..no wonder i only achieved an all time low of 27!)..gotta think more i gues..and gotta realli gotta stop churning out 4 pages long essays! its startin to look stupid on me..
anw gonna talk abt sth which i can't forget : vincent's mum's words.haha.went over to vin's house on saturday to study (supposedly) and i shld say it was fairly productive la..finished 3 1/2 chapters of physics MCQs.now i realised...my house's kinda big (i know many ppl will wanna punch me for this..haha)..and to think my old house was 2 times bigger! oh man..haha.anw..vincent's mum must be blind or my real madrid jersey must hav caused her quite abit of optical illusion.here's a section from vin's blog "muahahhaha... my mum gave hongyi n weijie the nicks "fat one n thin one." at first i tot the fat one she's referring to is weijie. but she's referring to hongyi. hahaha." oh man !!! NO WAY !! this is like sayin i'm a sumo wrestler! sulk..
pw outin's tmr..hopefully.to be very honest (like i've always been in real life and over here) i gotta admit that a part of me..wants not to attend.not realli sure why the feelin of uneasiness will surfice durin the outin (made into a gatherin of sorts..haha).mayb cos we haven't realli gotten together and talk for...ages? and my distancing policy actually became very effective.hmmm..mayb i reali shld be an optimist and not a realist for once?haha..
kinda been in the mood for reading.not too sure what started it..think its vincent's star wars book..ever since i laid my hands on it i've been readin it chapter after chapter and in 3 hrs i finished that little book.wow..haha.after that i kinda finished the entire english paper..and i simply wanted to devour books (ofcos not NOTES la..).its the 2nd thing only to soccer..how i wished i developed this habit earlier sia..somewhere in pri school would be nice..haha.den i probably will be smarter.mayb this's a sign of me growin up?haha..maturity perhaps?
speakin abt maturity..i've changed actually.ever since i found drinking and partying kinda boring and meaningless, gossiping kinda damaging and not realli exciting, arcade and playstation games kinda uninspiring and hard rock cum nu-metal music bland..i've kinda changed.frm listenin to rammstein at volume 10 (max la..) of my discman..to listenin to the radio at volume 5 now..and all these happened in like..2 yrs? how fascinating...and my metrosexuality grew ever since.haha.sth's bad sia..but mayb the relationship played a part..
hmmm...yaozong has a fetish for legs..weijie has one for hair..vincent has one for assets..haha.this is fascinating!
man u drew again...darn.somehow dey hav this tendency of not scoring when dey have to and when dey can..y ?! dey hav all the open chances...dey shld finish them sia.real..haiz.another disappointment. mayb dey need a true wakeup call in the form of players being fired and stuff..if that's ever possible there..so much for arsenal rot too..sux
gues the only thing now i realli enjoy (ofcos other den normal male indulgence) is..readin.haha..gotta finish jy's book sia..or he mite jus be fed up!haha..gonna go back to muggin sia..cya peeps! hope for the best tmr and thereafter! peace~!

weili : i love soccer..so how can i not write abt soccer?haha
everyone else : maia rox man! she's like how hot and how cool! and i'm like how contradictin myself! jerry jus sux la..he shld jus quit the show

for all of u guys who haven't tried this..give it a go! its realli realli accurate and damn fun..sth abt your love life and prediction thingie la..only for those who haven't tried it b4! haha :
http://www.crush007.com/love.cgi?id=1096895315kmc

yo peepz...its been a very very dead day today.the reality of my poor grades kinda set in today..realised i'm so pathetic when i saw the % A and Bs in NJ for prelims for almost all subjects.man..i'm so far off!but mayb a little piece of consolation..i used to be in remedials and stuff..now i'm out.sign's of things to come?hope so..
kinda got lucky for GP.didn't expect my summary to get like...8.5 out of 8 marks la.and Mr Yee said i'm top in class for compre...so that's brand new.apart frm miraculous summary, my AQ was terrible.4 out of 9...but no complains cos i know ABSOLUTELY nuts abt religion..becoz i hav NONE! not fair sia..hopefully i dun screw my essay up this time round..though Mr Yee's tight lipped abt this.
watched residents' evil today..the show was..typical residents evil la.zombies, monsters, freaks, blood, death..u name it, u got it.the only thing is the spook component kinda ran out at the end when it became like mortal combat with freaky monsters sia..gues the thing abt the show which kinda stands out is the amt of nudity.we are like...treated to sights of Alice's boobs for a good minute or so la..not that we wanted or sth. that's y its NC-16. Talkin abt NC-16..sth damn dumb happened. outside the theatre the uncle collectin tickets asked me if i'm 16, and i kinda sub consciously said i was 16, and i'm studyin in NJ.hahahaha...he looked stunned and puzzled la.haha.
big news today : Patrick Vieira and Lauren bust-up in team bus and had to be seperated by police! woohoo!told u arsenal's on a decline..get ready for man u!
if u're readin this yaozong, we didn't say anytin realli that bad to lydia and cindy lor..hahaha.dun worry la u're image is still more or less intact.jus slightly tainted lor..mine also what :P haha.
gonna study w vincent & weijie and vin's house tmr..haha.hope its productive.my bro's kinda depressed w his L1R5 of 13..sth i nvr expected.gotta go liaoz..cya peepz.peace!